Well, I don't know what it is about this month of October. It is the month of my birth - however - this is the second year that I've lost someone who I care about in the month of October. My Dad made his transition. Something in me is different - that's all I can say. I think it hurts so much because he is the last elder in my family that I was connected to - however slight. I didn't grow up with my Dad and for the past few years I've worked at having a relationship with him - mostly one-sided on my part - but that's ok. He's my Dad and I love him. I did not get to see him before hand and that hurts too. Plus he never did get to hear the CD. He did come to a few gigs over in San Francisco - which was cool. I also went to a family reunion with him a few years ago in Louisiana. I've made an attempt to be connected with my family members there - but they are not feeling it. My Dad has one brother left out of the large group of them - I'm not close with him - however - maybe I can change that - there is still so much I want to know about him.